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Project Skyscraper July 24, 2018


I shouldn’t be writing this. My nerves are shot. This is a very dangerous idea but seems like a necessity as I break things down in my mind. What if they find out? Well, that would be the end for sure. Not quite able to fathom the things that could happen. I have a difficult time digesting the things I have seen, the hinting of the things that I have not seen. My mind tries to wrap around the information that is constantly fed into it with very little luck. I feel that I must get down everything I can while it is still somewhat fresh in my mind. The people we are dealing with here seem to have a way to “fix” everything. I already feel some of my memory fading, as if slowly being wiped from the hard drive. I can almost see the green progress bar going across the screen of my mind. This scares me. It scares me because even deeper than the fear of being found out is the fear that this behavior will continue. The fear that without these notes the very projects that I have been asked to be a part, the selfish and evil plots that have been contrived in closed-door meetings, the underhanded downright sinister outline that is being followed will continue unquestioned.

Questions? I’m sure you are full of them at this point. I will do my best to explain everything but understand that even though I know too much and almost enough, there are still many gaps that need to be filled. Hopefully though this journal I will be able to capture the memory of events that have not been excavated and wiped from my brain. The still very vivid memory of my life for the past 20 years. Getting all of this down can serve us moving forward as more questions get answered. Why are they doing this? Who are they? Who does it effect? I can answer the last question simply, it affects everyone! There is not an individual on this planet that this scheme, this ongoing series of events does not affect. That means you…interested now?

My writing may seem strange at times, even a little all over the place. Understand that I am fighting years of regret at the things I have already been a part of while dealing with the fact that my work is still going as I try to understand the inner workings and how it may all be brought to an end. That is a lot for the mind to take. I still believe that they are on to me and that slowly my brain is not completely my own. Do I think they have the ability to control my thoughts? No, well I don’t think so. I wouldn’t put it past them but for now, I think it is about slowly erasing my thoughts. It is about doing so systematically so that it appears to be a naturally occurring event. You know what I am talking about. It has been happening for years and we are made to blame our age or some degenerative disease. We simply think it is part of growing older. What if I told you that I have seen the science that showed proof that the brain functions the same no matter the age unless acted upon by outside forces, THEM?

One goes through life gaining knowledge. They see things, they hear things, they don’t always understand what they are hearing or seeing but the brain works behind the scenes to piece things together. We are often very close to uncovering things. Things that I am trying to explain, things that we would be better off not piecing together but mankind needs us to uncover. The more knowledge that we feed our brain the closer we are to figuring things out. Now they have not figured out a way to manipulate the brain, that I know of, but they have figured out a way to erase crucial information so that solving the puzzle becomes more difficult, if not impossible. That’s why some lose their memories sooner than others. They have gained more information (intelligence), or at least more crucial intelligence. Once someone’s CI (crucial intelligence) level reaches a certain point it must be lowered. We see it as simple memory loss and try to combat it with herbs and supplements, which again feeds into the overall project. In severe cases where CI is rising quickly, we see it as diseases and we call it dementia or Alzheimer’s.

That might be enough information for today as we do not want a noticeable spike in your CI. Can you believe that it is someone’s job to monitor this? If we do not move slowly they will be notified and I will, most definitely be eliminated, and you will lose memory of this and possibly memories that you would like to keep. The memory targeting program is not always as accurate as it should be. Try to take in what has been mentioned today. Process it and move about your life. Don’t give it a huge priority because memories and thoughts are prioritized and this prioritization can also lead to higher than usual CI levels. You are just going to have to trust me. While we are in a race against time we must make sure that we do not tip our hand. I understand completely anyone who would choose to stop reading at this point. You will be completely safe with the information that I have given you. It is nowhere near enough. If you do decide to continue with me I will be careful to only give just enough information each time to keep us off the radar. Goodbye to some and for the rest of you, hold on it’s definitely going to be an interesting journey.

Sorry to seem vague but it is for the best. Answers will come.

The secret of patience is to do something else in the meantime.

–Croft M Pentz

100 Metallica Song Title Free Verse Poem


Just for fun, I thought I would take 100 Metallica song titles and try to organize them in a way that somewhat made sense to me and create a free verse poem.

I had fun creating it and look forward to doing more. If you have any suggestions for bands or artists that I should try, let me know in the comments below. Thanks for Watching!

Music: Enter the Maze by Kevin MacLeod is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution license (…) Source:… Artist:

Why Page Eighty5?


On my journey through life, I feel that I am around page eighty-five of a good book. Sure there have been some things that have happened and there have been great and defining moments but really the story is just beginning. We have taken the time to form the foundation, characters/setting/background, but I am only just beginning to see what it is that is going to define me, what my purpose may be.

Page Eighty5 is a random page, as it should be because this number could be different for everyone. This project is shaped by creativity and with creativity, it is important not to ask too many questions!

My Thoughts on “A Temporary Matter” by Jhumpa Lahiri


They other day I asked everyone to share their favorite short story over on the Page Eighty5 Facebook page. My good friend Ric suggested a few and I rather enjoyed his suggestions. Here are my thoughts on “A Temporary Matter” by Jhumpa Lahiri.

This short story was an experience and truly took you on an unexpected rollercoaster of twists and turns for being merely eleven pages. There were many times throughout that I thought I knew the direction the story was taking. At one point I had convinced myself that one of the characters may have already been dead. This seems to happen frequently after what happened to me while watching The Sixth Sense.  It is through these unexpected twists and turns that I really became invested. I wanted to see what was going to ultimately happen. When I finally arrived at the end of the story, when I reached page ten or eleven I cannot say that I was necessarily happy. The story mirrors life, however, and things don’t always turn out the way that they should.

Even though the end of the story was not as I would have liked, the way that the story was told gave me the opportunity to envision the perfect ending for me. I believe that each person may get something different from reading “A Temporary Matter.” I think that they will see what they choose to see and even though the conclusion of the story is written on paper does not limit the imagination to form a better ending to fit their unique situation. For that reason, I believe that “A Temporary Matter” by Jhumpa Lahiri is a great read.

Here is a link to the story if you would like to go check it out before reading more of my thoughts that may contain a bit of spoilers. Not too much but still may influence the thought process as you read the story.

“A Temporary Matter” by Jhumpa Lahiri

The story focuses on a couple who have been given notice that “for five days their electricity would be cut off for one hour, beginning at eight P.M.” This time forces the couple to take the time to open up to each other and find out things that maybe they never knew. There is a particular part of the story that spoke directly to me.

             “The morning of the fifth night Shukumar found another notice from the electric company in the mailbox. The line had been repaired ahead of schedule, it said. He was disappointed. He had planned on making shrimp malai for Shoba, but when he arrived at the store he didn’t feel like cooking anymore. It wasn’t the same, he thought, knowing that the lights wouldn’t go out. In the store the shrimp looked gray and thin. The coconut tin was dusty and overpriced. Still, he bought them, along with a beeswax candle and two bottles of wine.”

An unforeseen incident had caused something to happen that ended up becoming an amazing part of his day, one that he looked forward to arriving each day. The part of this paragraph that I found most interesting is that this part of the day could occur whether an outside force causes it to happen or not. Turning the lights off and making a concerted effort to connect with another person was completely within his control. I feel that we have this same issue in our everyday lives. We allow the noise, or even one little obstacle, to keep us from doing what we truly want to do. It keeps us from connecting with our family members, our friends, our spouse.

I think that short stories are important for many reasons: the feelings and emotions felt while reading, the entertainment value, and most importantly the call to action that they bring once the story is completed. What kind of impression will the story leave with you that carries on and guides decisions that could ultimately lead to a happier or more productive life? I think that this story has taught me a few lessons and I am thankful to my friend Ric for recommending it.

What is your favorite short story? I would love to possibly give it a read. Shoot us a comment or head over to the Page Eighty5 Facebook page and let us know there and join in on the daily discussion.

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